Yesterday was a day full of events, so I used that as an excuse not to write a blog post. My Windows totally crashed, thus I had to reinstall it and all the applications that come with it. Long story short – it was a pretty exhausting day which I completed by getting only 4 hours of sleep in total.
On the other hand, today’s mood is really amazing. I feel so motivated to become the best me there is. I have to admit that I should thank certain people for this, but hey – it worked! I finally found the motivation to face one of my most depressing points and work my hardest to turn it around. Life isn’t that gloomy once you begin to do something about it.
I also decided to restart daily morning training with Bailey since her leash manners are seriously the worst lately! Because she loves her new food so much, I will use that instead of treats. It’s semi-moist, so I don’t have to worry that it’ll get swollen and might hurt her from all the running.
On the one hand, I wonder how I got this sudden surge of motivation. On the other hand, I know how, but it’s embarrassing to admit it. To put it bluntly, I’d say “expectations”. I want to live up to my own fantasies/ expectations and stop the excuses. It’s so much easier to keep a routine and keep complaining that “nothing changes” than to actually break free from it.
I feel like I’m going through a second puberty. I joke around saying this, but it feels like there are so many things about me that changed these months. So many changes, such little time to realize what’s happening. I feel a bit scared at times, but overall much more confident and feel like I can finally keep my chin up. It’s funny how admitting my flaws can help me so much!
I feel hyped, yo!